Paige Margaret Nugent
February 5, 2008- March 10, 2010
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Our Letter to Paige
Paige's Memorial service was the perfect service for an imperfect situation. However, I am proud of the many people who contributed to the visitation, funeral service and ceremony at Morningside- every component was truly "Paige". Friends and family helped to create beautiful photo boards, a photo video, personalized sweet pea packets, personalize bubble, etc. The music and the readings during the ceremony represented our loss, uncertainty but faith in God to help us heal. We are grateful for Pastor John Niewald to allow us to provide our friends and family with a service that truly represented Paige and her love of life.
During the service, Paige's Mom read a letter to her daughter that Jason & Stacy had written shortly after her passing. We would love to share this letter because it provides so much more insight into Paige's life and her parents that love and miss her so much.
Paige,
As I look at your beautiful picture, I cannot accept that I will never be able to hold you in my arms or kiss your soft cheek. You are the most incredible person that I have ever known in my life and I am so humbled that you and God choose me to be your Mommy.
Anyone who was near me during my pregnancy and challenging recovery knows how difficult that time was but after you were born, I realized that I went through all of that to be rewarded with the most incredible child in the world. The night of February 5, 2008 was the most amazing night of my life. I couldn't’t let you go and I insisted on sleeping with you in my arms. After 38 weeks of having you inside me, I just couldn't’t imagine us ever separated. Right now, It just feels so wrong for us to be separated.
Paige, you make me smile when I think of your gorgeous blue eyes, your soft pretty hair and your beautiful smile that would light up every room. But more so, you were so kind and considerate of others that it was amazing! Not only were you polite but how does a toddler have such incredible compassion for others?
I am sorry that I have been crying so much- I know how much you didn't’t like that. I promise you that whenever I do start to cry, I will try to picture you looking up at me and doing whatever it takes to make me smile the way that you always used to. I promise that I will do my best to be silly and think about all of the silly things that I found myself doing once I became your Mommy- making up goofy songs, dancing in the living room with you and finding ways to get you to react to things that I knew were silly things to say! “Paige, is this Elmo?” and you would get this grin on your face and say “noooo, it’s Abby!!!!” and start laughing. Oh, these memories really make me smile.
Paige, I promise to do my best to take care of your Daddy. He wants me to tell you that he loves you and that he has loved you since the moment that he saw you. He loved your sweet soft skin and all he wants to do right now is to play with you. He said that you can pick any game that you want and he will play it with you. It is your choice and he promises to still be there anytime that you want to play with him. He also loved to dance with you and wishes that you could ask him to color with you one more time. “Paper Paige, we only color on paper!"
You know, his favorite thing in the world was his morning time with you. When you were a baby he loved to give you a bottle in the gliding chair and then have you fall asleep on his chest while he would sing “daddy loves Paigey”. When you go older, he loved to go into your room in the morning, see your head pop up with your smiling face and hear you say “hi Dada!” It was so funny to me how much he loved picking out your clothes. He tells me that he would ask every morning what color socks you wanted to wear. It amazed him that you always picked out the matching color. Daddy would try to trick you and ask “pink shirt and blue socks?” and you would grin and say “noooooo Daddy! Pink socks!” He also loved it when you would call from him when you and I would take a shower or a bath together. He loved drying you off in the towel and watching your little butt as you ran into your room to put on your jammies. We are both going to miss bath time with you.
Paige, Daddy wants me to thank you for being his daughter and tell you again that he loves you.
Paige, I promise that we will do our best to cherish the memories that we have and not think about memories that will never come but it is going to be really, really hard. It makes us sad to think about the experiences that we will never share together. Daddy used to always look up at the landing at our house and imagine you walking down them in your prom dress. We will never be able to experience a wedding or share in the great accomplishments that we felt you were destined to achieve. We promise that we will do our best to remind ourselves that you are in heaven with Jesus and you probably feel sad that we are missing out on that. We both know how much you loved a party and I am sure that you are entertaining everyone with Jesus.
Paige, I am not the same person that I was before you chose me as your Mommy. I am saddened at the person that I was before you enlightened us with your incredible smile and positivity. YOU MADE ME A BETTER PERSON and I will be forever grateful for that! I also know that you have in some ways enlightened every person that is here today in this room and I know that they also thank you. Daddy and I promise that we will do whatever we can to continue living your legacy by helping others and continuing to smile. Yes, we know that there will be days when we will shed some tears and struggle with finding the strength to continue on. So Paige, all of us here ask you to do one more thing for us. If we shed some tears, will you please look down upon us with your beautiful smile, wipe away our tears and do something silly? Pease? Tank you.
During the service, Paige's Mom read a letter to her daughter that Jason & Stacy had written shortly after her passing. We would love to share this letter because it provides so much more insight into Paige's life and her parents that love and miss her so much.
Paige,
As I look at your beautiful picture, I cannot accept that I will never be able to hold you in my arms or kiss your soft cheek. You are the most incredible person that I have ever known in my life and I am so humbled that you and God choose me to be your Mommy.
Anyone who was near me during my pregnancy and challenging recovery knows how difficult that time was but after you were born, I realized that I went through all of that to be rewarded with the most incredible child in the world. The night of February 5, 2008 was the most amazing night of my life. I couldn't’t let you go and I insisted on sleeping with you in my arms. After 38 weeks of having you inside me, I just couldn't’t imagine us ever separated. Right now, It just feels so wrong for us to be separated.
Paige, you make me smile when I think of your gorgeous blue eyes, your soft pretty hair and your beautiful smile that would light up every room. But more so, you were so kind and considerate of others that it was amazing! Not only were you polite but how does a toddler have such incredible compassion for others?
I am sorry that I have been crying so much- I know how much you didn't’t like that. I promise you that whenever I do start to cry, I will try to picture you looking up at me and doing whatever it takes to make me smile the way that you always used to. I promise that I will do my best to be silly and think about all of the silly things that I found myself doing once I became your Mommy- making up goofy songs, dancing in the living room with you and finding ways to get you to react to things that I knew were silly things to say! “Paige, is this Elmo?” and you would get this grin on your face and say “noooo, it’s Abby!!!!” and start laughing. Oh, these memories really make me smile.
Paige, I promise to do my best to take care of your Daddy. He wants me to tell you that he loves you and that he has loved you since the moment that he saw you. He loved your sweet soft skin and all he wants to do right now is to play with you. He said that you can pick any game that you want and he will play it with you. It is your choice and he promises to still be there anytime that you want to play with him. He also loved to dance with you and wishes that you could ask him to color with you one more time. “Paper Paige, we only color on paper!"
You know, his favorite thing in the world was his morning time with you. When you were a baby he loved to give you a bottle in the gliding chair and then have you fall asleep on his chest while he would sing “daddy loves Paigey”. When you go older, he loved to go into your room in the morning, see your head pop up with your smiling face and hear you say “hi Dada!” It was so funny to me how much he loved picking out your clothes. He tells me that he would ask every morning what color socks you wanted to wear. It amazed him that you always picked out the matching color. Daddy would try to trick you and ask “pink shirt and blue socks?” and you would grin and say “noooooo Daddy! Pink socks!” He also loved it when you would call from him when you and I would take a shower or a bath together. He loved drying you off in the towel and watching your little butt as you ran into your room to put on your jammies. We are both going to miss bath time with you.
Paige, Daddy wants me to thank you for being his daughter and tell you again that he loves you.
Paige, I promise that we will do our best to cherish the memories that we have and not think about memories that will never come but it is going to be really, really hard. It makes us sad to think about the experiences that we will never share together. Daddy used to always look up at the landing at our house and imagine you walking down them in your prom dress. We will never be able to experience a wedding or share in the great accomplishments that we felt you were destined to achieve. We promise that we will do our best to remind ourselves that you are in heaven with Jesus and you probably feel sad that we are missing out on that. We both know how much you loved a party and I am sure that you are entertaining everyone with Jesus.
Paige, I am not the same person that I was before you chose me as your Mommy. I am saddened at the person that I was before you enlightened us with your incredible smile and positivity. YOU MADE ME A BETTER PERSON and I will be forever grateful for that! I also know that you have in some ways enlightened every person that is here today in this room and I know that they also thank you. Daddy and I promise that we will do whatever we can to continue living your legacy by helping others and continuing to smile. Yes, we know that there will be days when we will shed some tears and struggle with finding the strength to continue on. So Paige, all of us here ask you to do one more thing for us. If we shed some tears, will you please look down upon us with your beautiful smile, wipe away our tears and do something silly? Pease? Tank you.
